☆ December 12, 2011 ☆
Not once a single sad thought has crossed my mind. I’m happy and I’m glad that it ended early even though we are going to continue with it later on. I’ll just accept this for the time being without regret and remain happy. Everything still seems like a dream, I can’t believe this is actually happening to me.
☆ December 11, 2011 ☆
Today seemed like a dream, too good to be true. Everything worked out great and the I got to see again.
I like it when we hold each other in our sleep because I know we won’t drift apart and wake up alone.
☆ December 10, 2011 ☆
You’ve always proved me wrong…
One of the things that I cherished about you was how you could prove me wrong. It’s something that no one has ever tried to do. I wanted someone who can defy all of my logical assumptions I could make because tied with the logic is all the low expectations and pessimistic thoughts. I always thought that I would be the first one who would cave in first and come to you but you did it first. I didn’t think you would go on skype to talk to me but just to someone else and I got sad again and then… you proved me wrong.
I was really happy when you did that…
☆ December 9, 2011 ☆
I had a dream where you and I was sitting around drinking and talking, something we’ve yet to do together.
Are you pretending like nothing happen or you enjoying your time alone? I can’t tell because I can’t do either.
Don’t be a liar with his pants on fire
☆ December 8, 2011 ☆
End of the first week.
After everything that has burden me had ended: the conflicts, the sorrow, the work…
I became happy and content and I realized that you are no longer a problem for me but a choice. Being with or without you, I am fine either way because I begun accepting it. I would prefer being with you but if you don’t, it’s alright. But if you accept that, you’ll have to deal with the changes. You’ve done too much to go back the way we were. That’s the way it has to be.
I just can’t forget you.
The moment you were away from my mind, in the corner of my eye I spot a girl wearing your bowser backpack but with red spikes instead. :( It’s difficult forgetting someone like you.
Today would have been the day when we would spend our time together doing whatever was on the agenda. I don’t have anything to do or anyone else to talk to… it reminds me of how lonely I was before you came into my life. It feels horrible.
The days used to fly by because I always had you to look forward to but now… I don’t. Life is moving slow and all the things I have aren’t enough anymore. Worse of all… I’m alone again.
I wonder how are you during this time.
- What have you been spending your time?
- - Video games and Anime like me, I bet.
- Did you recover from your depression?
- - I haven’t yet.
- Did you ever think about me?
- - I think about you once a day.
- Do you miss me?
- - I shouldn’t but I miss you.
- Are you happy?
- - I hope so because all I want is to see you with a real smile again.
But after wondering all that… I want to know…